yeah sorry for literally dying for a few months, school and work had quite literally kicked my ass.

this semester was the semester from hell i barely dragged my decomposing corpse over the finish line BUT ITS OKAY

it’ll get better eventually. but there’s always gonna be nights where it just hits me out of nowhere because right now i’m just here like

like mf u know it’s bad when anything ludwig related dont help 💀

i also just realized…31 whole pookies. that means sm to me,,,because like that seems like such a tiny number but shit 31 POOKIES ????? i love u guys

man i cant fucking sleep but i just was thinking. there’s certain things i can’t look at or do without being reminded of something or someone. there’s songs i cant listen to the same anymore, movies i cant watch. activities i used to do but they’re tainted by memories. no matter how long these people have been out of my life, some of them i’m happy that they’re gone, their existence still resonated with me. part of me hates it, because some of these people i haven’t talked to in YEARS. then, some of these people i despise with a burning passion. i don’t WANT to remember them, but it’s hard not to in moments like this. i don’t know what to do to change this. does it ever change ? does it ever get better ?

GUESS WHOS A WORKING WOMAN AGAIN

going on that job hunt again wish me luck pookies

something that still makes my brain go yippee is when someone saves a song from my playlist onto theirs

dude i had to crank out a whole after effects video with a fever. but now that it’s finally over, i’m not nearly as stressed bc i don’t have to draw 30 different things anymore AND I CAN FINALLY REST

im gonna be real at first i thought i hated my computer graphics class because of how much shit my professor made us do but i realized that im so glad we learned so much so fast. this class has really taken me outta my comfort zone. like...i made my own choose your own adventure story. i made a short god damn animation- I LEARNED HOW TO FUCKING ANIMATE FINALLY. the dude is always so supportive of me its actually insane and now all i want to do is learn more and grow. so glad i changed my major because this is the shit i was born to do. i feel love for this all the way through my fucking veins.

I DREW THIS MF AFTER A WEEK OF SIMPING. IT TOOK ME M O N T H S BEFORE I DREW LUDWIG. THIS IS BAD.